Ever since I was fourteen I volunteered with kids and after I graduated high school I became a counselor. This week will be my last week to work as an after care counselor and it’s bitter sweet. I’m going to miss my kids more than you can imagine. You grow so attached to a group of kids who have been your group since they were 5 and now it’s goodbye.
I’m going to be working in a law firm and that terrifies me. Working in an office setting that I’ve honestly never done before. It’s not that I don’t think I can do it because I do think I can do it but it’s the fact that it’s new and scary. Trying to get a grasp of my life and how to slowly make it a little more mine every single day.
My parents are great parents, but they both think they know what’s best for me and truth is only I know what’s best for me. I see the path I want for myself and I’m slowly figuring out how to follow it. I know at 21 I’m still young and have all the time in the world, but I don’t at the same time.
Trying to grasp what I should be doing and how I should be constantly moving my life fowared is scary and honestly I’m just afraid that I’ll make the wrong move.
Life is about learning from your mistakes but what if I can’t figure out the lesson. It’s normal, or so I’m told, to worry about your future especially at this point in our lives, but I’m so over worrying about it.
Let’s just skip to the good parts. Yea… I like that idea.