The colors pink and red have been imprinted into my brain and I cannot fathom why in the world would anyone want to be out today. Couples are everywhere you turn at all hours of the day showing love and affection and honestly, gross. Being single on Valentine’s Day is like being a country star at an EDM festival. It’s awful.
Now don’t get me wrong it’s not awful to be single. I actually enjoy having less to worry about at this point in my life but, on Valentine’s Day. That’s another story. It’s the one day a year where you actually want someone to show up on your front door with white roses, a giant stuffed panda, and some pretty pandora charm you don’t have yet.
Yes I like pandas. They’re cute.
Anyway, my parents have been out of town this weekend and some serious cuddling should be going on… But I’m single, so it’s not. I have been cuddling alone, well mostly with my stuffed panda bear.
But that doesn’t completely count.
At this very moment my most committed relationship is with the guy at the drive thru window at Starbucks. (The fact that I went to high school with him and we were friends before he started working there is besides the point.) The point is he knows my drink order and so do some of the other people who work there. That is the point. It is suppose to be a day about love and happiness and I will take a Venti Iced Coffee with Cream and Sugar. Thanks.
The problem I think is that I’m okay with it. According to my mother I don’t date enough or give the guys I do date enough time to be what I want. But if I don’t feel it I don’t feel like I’m in a place where I should force it. Yes watching hundreds of couples be mushy on a day when you can’t because you’re single is kind of annoying but I don’t think I would trade it for some mediocre relationship where I’m always unhappy except for today because I’m forced to fake it, that’s just sad.
Not that every relationship is mediocre and unhappy because I’m sure there are plenty of happy and successful relationships out there but I know plenty of people that I look at there relationship and think Yup, defiantly prefer being single over that bullshit any day.
So I’m spending the day with friends who have all been long term members of my life and I see no flaw or sadness in that. Because plenty of people out there are going to spend it with a person who they don’t really know, don’t really like, or makes them angry more than happy. And that to me is the saddest way you could spend a holiday based off love.
So I’ll take my coffee and I can buy myself the pandora charm. Thanks anyways.